4.

So I got ready for school, and as always I was in the mood for black. A black skirt, a shirt that would match it and also a mini purse but i tight my hair in a braid. I was in such a hurry that I forgot my book which I had to give it back to my Friend Blair. She's freaking in love with that book. I can't count how many times she had read it. She's a bookworm but in a good way.

We had plans to meet half way to school and there she was, sitting on the steps as always with K. the fashion blogger. She's a nie person and I love her crazy way of dressing.
"Hi guys, I coffee first? " I've said. K. as always was stearing at people, she like to see what others were wearing and compare it or actually create a different look which suit them better.And B. was just as excited as I was. There was a new coffee shop that was about to open and it was all steam punk inspired. Couldn't wait to get there.
"Hi F. nice outfit today, are you going for the good girl today? Blair asked.
" Actually yes, today I just have good feeling. Do you remember Dimitri? I asked, kind of shy ...i could feel my face turn red.
"ohhhhh look K. I think somebody has a thing for Dimitri, of course we remember him" they bought giggle."but isn't he dating your Barbie sis? I heard they are an item couple." Blair said kind of dissapointed . She never like my sis and I don't blame her cuz I share her feelings.
"Come on B, that must only half of the truth, I mean have you ever seen them matching their clothes? They don't match at all, he's no ken for the Barbie Queen" she laughed,
"Well he might not be the Ken, but I do think they are dating, as you know, we don't share as much even if we live under the same roof". I said which was very true. I didn't want to know what she was doing and as hell I didn't want her to know anything about me. She will just spread rumors about me.
She's the popular one and I'm her  anti-social sister as all have been saying.
"So everyone ready ?"I asked.
"Of course, let's go, I can't wait to drink a new flavoured coffee" B said . While K. just  started to talk about her new photography session. She wanted to do an inspired outfit that would match the new coffee shop. But first she had to see it.

It was awesome. It was like we were in an alien ship or went back in time. I love it and so do B and K . We took the table  in the corner and waited for our coffee. Meanwhile my sis and her flock of so cald "friends" entered the shop and as usual they took the sits by the window so everyone could see them. She was such a attention freak. But only when they all sat down I could see that he was there taking a sit next to her. That's when our eyes met, I couldn't move a mussel but just then Blair shaked me off and I got so red when I realised I was really staring at him. That's so embarassing.
"Dammit"...I've said...while covering my face and the girls started to laugh.
"Yes F. you sure do have a weak spot for that boy but look, if he's dating your sister than that means he's only after one thing and doesn't do much dating stuff which your into." B said.
"Yes, as B said you also have Dean which is so damn hot,  why don't you just hang out?"k asked me but it didn't know what to say, yes I like him but it's not the same. He's a good guy but there' something about Dimitri that makes me forget about anything else. Why is this so hard. Is he such a bad guy? Aren't we judging a book only by it's cover? Maybe I should just forget about him.
"I don't know, I don't want to just waste time with him and making him fall for me when I so obviously like someone else, even when it's that guy. Dean doesn't deserve to be hurt that way. I'm not good for him or anyone now" I;ve said.
"Sorry F, we didn't mean it like that. We know that your still hurt and all but I don't think Mister Perfect over there will do you any good" B said and K was on her side.
Oh I so wish they were wrong...
We headed back to school, classes were about to start and now I wasn't in any mood to go.
When I took my sit next to the window the teacher  said that we will be having a sitting change . I couldn't care less until I saw who was next to me . I couldn't breath anymore, how could this happen? Damn, I even thought about forgetting him.

3.

It's x-mas day, but why doesn't it feel like this, she wonders...

All day in bed, waiting for the new year to come faster, maybe something will change. A better chapter waiting for her .
She may not know what the new year will bring her but that's the beauty of it. You can create your own path,  step by step.
So here begins  a new day and what makes it better is the present that is waiting for her down stairs.
"AND NO SCHOOL" she told herself . So she started to run down to find her long awaited present.
When she found her target she just jumped to catch it before someone else takes it. She had another sister who always was curios about everything and she was a wench. Those kinda that rule the school, in their mini pink skirts.And of course she  was sitting near her beautifull wrapped presents still waiting for someone. And he came...
 It was that guy with big dark eyes,Dimitri, was he's name and "boy, he could take over the  world with that smile, or at least he took my heart" she thought in her mind. She didn't know what to do or to say, but when she saw that her sister goes and kisses him  she felt like puking...
"just how could she, he wasn't a football player or any kind of sport player, why him? Was it because I liked him, just how could she do this to me? Damn I hate that wench,She  thought"
She took her present without saying another word but before she could  go upstairs she grabed her arm and told her to wait.
"Here, Happy Christmas" he said with a smile that could melt the world.
"Umm...Thanks.." she took the present and went upstairs.
She forgot why she was so sad and mad. In that moment she was about to cry of happiness. She got  the leptop that she always wanted and another present that she didn't had the heart to open it .She just stared at it for a long time and just when she wanted to open it she heard a knock on her door.
"Freya, can i come in?" he asked, waiting for her to let him  in.
"Oh boy what am i gonna do, shit.."she thought.
"Freya, are you alright, hope you are not mad ..." she open the door before he could say anything else.
"Oh, so you aren't mad?" he said smiling.
"Ha? Umm, no I'm not, why should I be?And you should come in before my evil sister sees you " she said.
"Evil sis? So can I hide in here before she turns me in a frog?"he jocked. She closed the door and they just sat on her bed, stairing at each other for some time .
"You haven't opened my present..."he said, kind of sad...
"Oh yeah, I was going to but  then you came " she said, a bit shy to even look at him.
"And by the way, what are you doing here? You the new boyfriend?" she asked with a sad smile...
"Nope, I was passing by, hoping to see you... but then your sister made me come in and she just jumped on me as you saw..." he just looked away...
"..aa.aa..hoping to see me?..umm Why...? she asked,feeling like she was about to die.Her heart was about to tear it's own way out of her chest and run to him..."Why would he want to see or even give me a present, and what could be in that box, was he kidding, was he just playing with her?" she thought a bit scared about what he was going to say...

"Actually yes, I .. like you..for some time now..but ...I thought that you hate it me...so.... I couldn't say something ...even thought i wished I did...so I am saying it now...Freya would you like to be my girlfriend?"
But before she could said something the room changed and everything went black. It was another dream, "dammit" she thought..."Mom, just another chapter and then i will come down" she said to her mom. A bit mad at her because she woke her from the dream...

2.

The next day she woke up at 6 am and she made her way into the kitchen and brew some coffee.

        It had became a habbit after being too tired each and every day ,meanwhile she was searching quotes about "motivation", something to pump her up. And today 's quote was " You  have the patience , the strenght and the passion to achive your ambiotions, your goals and your dreams. All you have to do now is TO TRY" . That gave her the power to smile today...
     

1.

         Her name was Freya , just like the goddess of love .She had one blue cat, named Hitori, it was a boy, a silly but evil one . She loved her cat very much, it was her only friend .
         She was a shy girl who loved more to live in her own world than the real one .Freya also  liked to paint or draw people but she wasn't good at socializing .
        People never liked her because she was strange and she told them the truth even if that made her be a loner .
          Does she like to live like that? Well, she doesn't but she's too afraid to make a move. The fear of the future is one of the biggest obstacles  that trangulates her heart and mind. It seems like never-ending crisis,chaos and self-doubt.
          She had no control over herself. Didn't try her best in anything, everything seemed useless  and yet she seemed to like a boy from her school . She didn't know much about him, but he seems to be bad for her but at least they talk . Why? She doesn't know, maybe he's just a player and she's another to the list ....

   Yet she  couldn't stop staring into his big dark eyes every time she sat next to him . Tommorow she might bump into him .

   His  name is Dimitri  ....